For persons who have lost someone – and let’s be honest – we have all been touched by death in one way or another. A number of of us have experienced death in the “natural order”. These deaths are, nonetheless, incredibly painful losses for example: grandparents or beloved teachers and mentors. The closer it is to home, the added intensity is of the pain. When I say home, I mean heart. When the loss is closer to the heart, the harder it hurts.

You saunter about as if you are looking for any resemblance of yourself. I did this. There was a great deal of me that I lost after she left. When someone is to a large extent, 80% of your day to day, every day and suddenly that stops… it’s catastrophic to continue on in the same manner – that “YOU” as you knew it just doesn’t exist any longer. You have to find what pieces you have and attempt to form a shape out of that.

There are no advantages to losing a loved one – but as you begin to sense that you are becoming ready to search out the ways in which you can obtain getting a little on track with things again – it does seem like a breath of fresh air to ditch some of that old staunch way of boxing yourself in or in other words “living & thinking” and instead, embrace something novel. “Reinventing who you are” that can be empowering and invigorating. You have become a different character. You are changed. Your experiences have molded you in a different way. The course has shifted. I know that my path or direction was a sudden hit. It; and “It” being: “my direction in how I would spend my days with the giant void that used to fill it”; literally felt as though I got hit with a large whiffle bat in the gut and then from the strength and momentum of the blow swung me around and around imagine (15) 360 degree turns. Coming back from the dizziness you are left with in life after a blast like that takes time and everyone’s timing is different from anyone else. I am presently coming to the realization that I feel, I could completely transform my opinions, suggestions, activities, job, ministry, and focus in life.

I am taking life’s challenge and reinventing myself, I think I am finally coming out of the fog.