Weird. I had a weird connection to this song and I could not place why.
I also forgot all three of the songs that we played at Dakota’s funeral. Going through old emails today – I found them. Odd – I really thought they were different songs than these.
Ironically this song – I thought, helped me through things that I was going through. I wonder if God, on purpose blocked this song from my memory so that I could make it mine.
Maybe that’s why I can see how this song would have helped her, why she would have identified with it. I had another run in with a song that was played at her funeral, just this morning (I am getting a lot of parallel experiences even just today). Re-reading these lyrics brings me a renewed peace that she just needed to be home with Jesus. And as much as I miss her, I will always be grateful that she is no longer in pain. Re-reading and finding this song, was her journey – this tells her story. She tried, she battled.

Your Love”
I felt it first when I was younger,
A strange connection to the light,
I tried to satisfy the hunger;
I never got it right.
I never got it right.

So I climbed a mountain and l built an altar,
Looked out as far as I could see,
And everyday I’m getting older,
I’m running outta dreams.
I’m running outta dreams.

But Your love!
Your love.
The only the thing that matters is Your love!
Your love is all I have to give.
Your love is enough to light up the darkness!
It’s Your love!
Your love.
All I ever needed is Your love…

You know the effort I have given,
And you know exactly what it cost.
And though my innocence was taken…
Not everything is lost.
Not everything is lost!

But Your love!
Your love.
The only the thing that matters is Your love!
Your love is all I have to give.
Your love is enough to light up the darkness!
It’s Your love!
Your love.
All I ever needed is Your love…

You’re the hope in the morning.
You’re the light when the night is falling.
You’re the song when my heart is singing.
It’s Your love!

You’re the eyes to the blind man.
You’re the feet to the lame men walking.
You’re the sound of the people singing.
It’s Your love!

But Your love!
Your love.
The only the thing that matters is Your love!
Your love is all I have to give.
Your love is enough to light up the darkness!
It’s Your love!
Your love.
All I ever needed is Your love…

But Your love!
(Your love is all that I needed.)
The only the thing that matters is Your love!
Your love is all I have to give.
Your love is enough to light up the darkness!
(Your love is all that I needed.)
It’s Your love!
Your love.
It’s all I ever needed…

Even still, it takes my breath away.
Amazing how I can sit here, “working” thinking and feeling these things about her. Missing her… and the beat goes on. All the people around me, just going through whatever motions they are, to cover up their “not so normal existence.”
We have to pay better attention to each other. I think that subliminally we all are telling each other our stories, just like when Dakota sang this song. That’s why we picked it, nothing happens as just chance. There is a calculated and concise reasons for everything, even if we ourselves don’t yet realize it.