I am about to start an innovative program and I am thrilled to get moving forward with this.
I want to share with you, the vision I see for this new journey.

If you have read in my other posts, my weight is primarily an effect by my exhausted adrenal glands. I have adrenal issues because of the emotional stress and deep grief of losing my daughter to suicide, ultimately. I was on my way to increased adrenal issues with just my ordinary life.

Because we were foster parents, we were under the careful watchful eye of social workers and therapists. Then of course there were the issues my daughter had that brought other social workers, therapists, and the courts. My ex who would stir up trouble for the sport of it was an extreme case. We were also ministry leaders in a pressured environment. I was volunteering in too many places and trying to launch a new business at the same time. No wonder everything came crashing down, it had to. When it did I had no concept of how to manage the life I had built for myself.

Clear thoughts would not come for many months. I needed to run on just robotic type movements. Things in my life would ultimately have to be discarded and now I am re-writing them.

Looking to this new journey – with every pound that comes off, in record time, it will be like victory over the new changes that I want for our lives. Everything we do is with passion now. Everything is a purpose that we actively pursue. At the end of this journey, I will be 20 – 40 pounds lighter. I will be cleansed of any desire for alcohol or bad foods. I will be more health conscience and will be tons healthier. I will fit into clothes that I haven’t worn in years. I will have more options; I will also be able to lose weight with exercise. I will be reset.

Reset – I need that. I want to be reset from years of things that I don’t want to hold on to anymore. Reset, I want to give the bag of sadness for the loss of my dad, and grandparents. I want to give up the hurt that I experienced from my mom and brother while they were hurting. I want to give up all the things that have ever come out of my mouth that was ugly. I want to give up the memories of what kids have said about me when I was in school, when I first realized that people were mean just because. I want to erase the knowledge of cruelty and prejudice. I want to give up all the things that have shaped me into a bitter, tried, worn, tired, short tempered, quick to fight person.

Reset – reset my metabolism and set weight. Reset my mind. Reset my emotions. Reset my thought patterns. Reset my spiritual fervor. Reset me.

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